any regrets?

had some emotion stir-up when I learned the news that an ex-colleague has passed away recently. He was a known MR Good guy and he was still so young ! just 2 years older than my supporting spouse. I cant help but ponder if I were in his shoes, at the time of accident when he knew he's not going to make it, what were his last thoughts ? regrets? of things that he had not done? or words that he had not said to his loved ones?

Well, it had some quiet time alone yesterday and i gave it a little thought...
my duty as a daughter, I think I have matured over the years and have shown much progress in this role.

my recent BIG gift to my parents - a pair of gold rings on Valentine's day. didnt cause me any $ because I used my downy to trade in and I can tell they were elated with the surprise. HOw I know? because they went back to the goldsmith had their names engrave on both rings and have been wearing the ring since then and the rings are prefect fit !


Also had some quality time with them... dad and mum like to do some planting and their latest to bear fruit - dragon fruit. papa is so proud of his achievements that he asked a few times if I would like to take photo of it ! and here we go... me posing w the dragon fruit. "pretending" Im able to cut.

The real cutting out was done by papa ! hee hee

and then we have proud mummy posing w a victory sign.


my role as Daughter in law... well.. on average Im doing pretty well. Handling with the boys and helped out abit when she needed help. and bearing in mind some of the things she wanted and getting them for her.

my role as a wife... may be studying now but I'm still able to handle both houses and kids with much balance. also able to give him a little surprises occasionally such as getting him a 45min flight simulator ticket for him to experience flying his own plane. IT's a very expensive gift I must admit and I pondered for a few days before deciding to buy it for him. Well, since his dream is to learn flying, this is the first step for him - something which I can help him with. So this role - I'm ok too.

Role as myself...See the photo of me above, ya, that's my latest outlook. Tu Tu hair with tu tu spec. I used to hate looking this nerdy but funny enough, as I aged, I started to feel more confident being myself and I liked this appearance.

Probably the only regret if i were to leave this world now, is not being able to accompany my boys and see him grow up.

IT's always through this kind of "news" that will act as a reminder for oneself to live in the present.

Ogenki desu ka

Ogenki desu ka is asking HOW DO YOU DO in Japanese.
Alright, so here's some updates about me, him & our boys !

my current status...i just had my exam a week before CNY, and is still working on my 5,000 research project report.have been working on it for months now and am really happy that each step i take now is bringing me nearer to the destination! See these are the 44 sets of survey that I have collected from our senior colleagues.

and putting them into tables for analysis... wohooo... Look at this !

indescribable feeling of overcoming part by part of that piece of work! yeah!

update on my supporting spouse...as his wish, we are still adventuring into day camps for our boys the most recent one we had was 2 weeks before CNY. This is by far the longest duration of camp...10am-3pm and here's some pics to remember...



and then he got 2 super giant tent frm overseas and we just tried it on cny eve... some pics pics again.


There's gun training session... Yes, because my dear supporting spouse like guns so much, we started buying a few and...we got Jiewen, Gary, Vincent and Gilbert to join us too ! We trained ourselves hard...and even got the girls (Enci & Xinci) to try on the guns) and have one-on-one team fight...




And then we arranged to have our GUN Party during our reunion dinner @ 5th uncle's hse...it's a pity, this is the only shot I managed to take.

Well, if you are interested in getting a NERF gun like us, you may want to go to youtube to watch THE GREAT OFFICE WAR. haa haa...it's a nice video on NERF guns.

And then update on our boys...One weekend during their play...

YuXiang: Didi where you want to go>
Yukuan: Kor Kor, i wan go Taiwan.
YuXiang: Go where? shopping?
Yukuan: I wan go Taiwan shopping
Yuxiang: Ok, I drive you go. (turn towards me) MAMA ~ We are going to the airport!
haha, Im just amazed by their logical thinking...the sequence of their conversation are all very realistic (smiles).

My working Wear

To my dear sons,

This is how your mommy dress to work.
I have to admit that this is already the improvised dressing after some trials.
At this point of point, your mommy decided that she does not wish to look like an Auntie, but a pretty young moomy *smiles*

Would you do my Eulogy?

Inspired by D-Guy next Door, his expression towards current news & affairs is so natural & in his own style that it makes me ponder " If I were to express my thoughts like this, who wld b my target audience? I mean, Who wld want to know or Understand my thoughts & views?

And then, a couple of mths ago, I finished a book called "HAVE A LITTLE FAITH" by Mitch Albom.

The man of God asked the writer to do his eulogy.
He insisted that he had to know him better.

Yess...EULOGY...this is when people would want to know what kind of person I am. if that's the case... maybe this place would be a good source for the person who would be doing MY EULOGY. I have started inserting some personal thoughts / recently if one notices... hee hee

On the writer, Mitch Albom, I actually like his earlier book "Tuesdays with Morris" better.

I read it twice. It's more touching...I even thought maybe I can do some sharing from the contents... but..haiz... seems like my standard is not there yet.
Give me some time... I'll come back to it again one day.