any regrets?

had some emotion stir-up when I learned the news that an ex-colleague has passed away recently. He was a known MR Good guy and he was still so young ! just 2 years older than my supporting spouse. I cant help but ponder if I were in his shoes, at the time of accident when he knew he's not going to make it, what were his last thoughts ? regrets? of things that he had not done? or words that he had not said to his loved ones?

Well, it had some quiet time alone yesterday and i gave it a little thought...
my duty as a daughter, I think I have matured over the years and have shown much progress in this role.

my recent BIG gift to my parents - a pair of gold rings on Valentine's day. didnt cause me any $ because I used my downy to trade in and I can tell they were elated with the surprise. HOw I know? because they went back to the goldsmith had their names engrave on both rings and have been wearing the ring since then and the rings are prefect fit !


Also had some quality time with them... dad and mum like to do some planting and their latest to bear fruit - dragon fruit. papa is so proud of his achievements that he asked a few times if I would like to take photo of it ! and here we go... me posing w the dragon fruit. "pretending" Im able to cut.

The real cutting out was done by papa ! hee hee

and then we have proud mummy posing w a victory sign.


my role as Daughter in law... well.. on average Im doing pretty well. Handling with the boys and helped out abit when she needed help. and bearing in mind some of the things she wanted and getting them for her.

my role as a wife... may be studying now but I'm still able to handle both houses and kids with much balance. also able to give him a little surprises occasionally such as getting him a 45min flight simulator ticket for him to experience flying his own plane. IT's a very expensive gift I must admit and I pondered for a few days before deciding to buy it for him. Well, since his dream is to learn flying, this is the first step for him - something which I can help him with. So this role - I'm ok too.

Role as myself...See the photo of me above, ya, that's my latest outlook. Tu Tu hair with tu tu spec. I used to hate looking this nerdy but funny enough, as I aged, I started to feel more confident being myself and I liked this appearance.

Probably the only regret if i were to leave this world now, is not being able to accompany my boys and see him grow up.

IT's always through this kind of "news" that will act as a reminder for oneself to live in the present.